Transformed

A course of incredibly refreshing, dark energy flows through me this morning. I feel very groggy this morning, but I feel incredibly focused. The energy is unmistably dark. I can only focus on the darkness, and now only attempt to listen to lighter music is failing me. In fact, it’s agitating me more.

But here’s a little dark, ironic secret: my all time cheer up song is “All I Want For Christmas Is You” by Mariah Carey.

The dark energy is attractive. As it runs through me this morning, I can feel myself being more and more alert and awake. Somehow, I think if the energy is not controlled properly, it could be very dangerous for me.

Part of this is probably caused by my inability to write my story properly. I just get so wrapped up into it. My recent memories and emotional experiences with a certain person doesn’t help at all.

So, let’s see what happens today. During my free time I’m going to write some more today. My story is about to turn into something more lighthearted, I think, and it’ll be interesting to see what I will write with this kind of darkness in me today.

High Strung Parents

One of the worst things about tutoring is dealing with parents with unrealistic expectations.  Sometimes they’re just overwhelmed and too stressed out about their child’s academic performance, and I ended up getting the brunt of it.

Tonight was one of these nights, when I get a message from my kid, essentially from the mom accusing me of leaving without the work completed and how irresponsible I was.

So I ended up doing the kid’s assignment.  Hopefully it’s good enough.  If not, well that’s too fuckin bad.

Tutoring is a joy when you see the kid doing well, but it’s horrid when you have to deal with parents like that